Spirit-lead or Humanitarian?

So tonight was the Homeless Outreach and i went after a long time of not going because i did not feel the calling to go. I went tonight because The Parking Spot as a ministry wanted to partner and support the outreach.. As was serving the homeless i noticed how appreciative and joyful they were, even when non-homeless were getting food.

The strange thing was, it was very satisfying. I felt good. I felt like i was doing a good thing.

It almost felt the same as walking in the Lord's will.

As i thought about it, i didnt go before because i knew it wasn't in my giftings and passions, it wasnt where God was calling me to this season; the strange thing was it felt like it. I think a lot of ppl might confuse humanitarian works for those Spirit-led works. They hear in church that they are supposed to be doing these things, and if not they aren't being a "good Christian". When they go they might be confusing feelings.

The Parking Spot is a ministry that equips our community with teachings of authentic biblical community and out of that we release our ppl to do those things that they are passionate about. This outreach is the first fruits of that heart. and as our ppl do these things we as the leaders support them. Those that organized the outreach are the ones walking in God's will for their lives, operating in their passions and giftings. Those of us there for support, well i cant speak for everyone but, i was not.

However, I dont think it was a bad thing. I think there is room for Humanitarianism within the Kingdom as long as it doesnt get in the way of The Lord's will. For example if had chose the outreach over an other ministry within a church because i thought that "going out and doing something" is always God's will then it would be a bad thing because i was not operating in my calling and what God has told me to do this season which is equip the Church body.

I dont know...im just thinking through this.

Thoughts?

Spiritual covering and leadership???

So normally i am very firm in my "it was your decision you live with it" rule. I will not feel that bad if you made a decision that you end up regretting even if there was a possibility that i could of stopped it from happening.

This situation though, i am not sure how i feel about it. Here is the scene, there are a lot of (trying not to sound arrogant) spiritually young girls in the dorms; all adults, but relatively new to Christianity. On friday i suggested a movie since we finished the Pspot early. I suggested "Devil" as it looked interesting and i like scary movies. There was good buy in but Steph had come down and she heard about the plans and asked what movie we were seeing, i told her and she looked at me with very serious eyes and said 'dont take my girls to see that, you gotta protect these girls'. I thought she was being really like, all serious but joking, you know what i mean ya? Ok so i really thought she was joking but we didn't go see it that night and i shrugged it off. Now last night, Sunday, we all went as a group to see the movie. Now as a little background, I have seen Alot of scary movies and it is my favorite genre, I dont get scared at them and see them as just movies. So it ended up being the typical scene, a bunch of girls getting scared and one guy not, but one of the girls was really affected by it and was very shaken up.

Now according to my typical rule i would have said "it was your decision you live with it", and shrugged it off. But as soon as that happened i saw back to Friday night when Steph was talking to me and was like "oh crap".

I am not sure how to feel about it, i was really convicted. I feel like i should have stepped up and took Spiritual leadership as one of the more "mature" Christians of the dorms and heeded what Steph had said. I feel like i should have caught that she was serious and possibly even being a little prophetic.

Wether or not i am to always be a Spiritual leader for the dorms i dont know, probably not though. But i feel that this time i should of been.

So if those of you that saw the movie with me read this, I humbly ask your forgiveness that i did not catch something that possibly God was telling me through Steph.

Thoughts?

Much love,

Chris.